The past year sure has been a roller coaster. Friends have come and gone, school has started, marriages have ended, jobs have finished and babies have been born.
About a year ago I became really good friends with this girl really quick. Any time we got together we would talk for hours about anything and everything. All at once my life came crashing down. She knew what was happening and yet she didn’t seem to care. She was one of my closest friends and yet she blew me off time and time again. Another girl from school who barely talked to me knew what was going on. Still to this day, almost a year later we still aren’t that close but she still asks me how I’m doing and it is very obvious that she is sincere.
The past few months I have been doing a lot of thinking about my life and specifically my friends. I don’t have time to deal with peoples b.s. and I don’t appreciate being blown off on multiple occasions. I just can’t figure out why someone could tell me they are my friend and then turn their back when I needed them most.
A few weeks ago, I was talking with a friend from school, about how I feel like I don’t fit in. Her response was that everyone loves me. I had a hard time believing her because everyone has their little click and I don’t fit in to any of them, I never get invited to go do anything. I was told it had something to do with the fact that I was either pregnant or a new mom since the program started.
She also reminded me of something I already knew…I was a moody pregnant lady. Although I already knew that it kind of hurt hearing it from someone else. It was like a slap across the face, someone else saying it made it even more real.
Could my moodiness be the reason the friend I mentioned earlier stopped talking to me? If it is, she was never really a good friend. My true friends understood what I was going through and stuck by my side despite what mood I was in.
I was going through a really hard time and there were only a handful of people who stood by my side. THANK YOU. Thank you for putting up with my moodiness and making sure that I survive my life.
Oh, and thank you for letting me rant =-) This person has been driving me bonkers lately!
Friends do come and go. I even have friends that were a part of my wedding that have come and gone too. My favorite friends of all are the ones who you can call up or meet at any time after not seeing them for a long while and it seems like you just pick up where you left off. These friends are the ones that I have carried with me for several years and see myself enjoying years down the road. I saw a quote recently....don't remember who posted it or who said it but it went something like, "Some friends make your life better by walking into it and some friends make your life better by walking out of it." So true....a harsh reality sometimes but true.
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